Skinny Love.

There is something so beautiful about this community- the ProAna one. Outside of this keyboard I am misunderstood. We are misunderstood. My mother continuously tells me that "Fat is not a feeling", but oh she is so wrong. It is. Fat is a feeling, just as skinny is a feeling. I hunger for skinny. We hunger for skinny. To be skinny is to be something alluring. Something with a story. We, the ProAna women, are all striving for the same thing physically, to be skinny. But we are all striving for different reasons. For different destinations, results. How long can one adhere to this lifestyle? I am nineteen. I first felt fat when I was four. I remember looking into the mirror with my friend Samantha. She was so beautiful. I was so awkward. So fat. Swimming- I hated it as a child. I wore swimming trunks over my suit. Over my fat ass ten year old thighs. Fifteen years of feeling fat. Over a decade. This has to end. It will end. I refuse to live like this any longer. I am skinny. skinny.